Posted by Pattie on 4/25/2002 12:21:00 PM

Now we've both neglect the blog. Life has a way of getting in the way of art.

I am emotional today -- crying, overwhelmed by everything. And I feel lonely -- profoundly lonely, existentially lonely.

There are people in my life, people I treasure and love. But I don't fit in. I'm not really a part of any particular group. When asked my religion, I always respond "zen quaker" because I like the mindfulness of zen and the social conscious of quakers. I've put this on my check-in sheet at the hospital a couple of times. No minister has showed up.

I feel spiritually frozen and adrift, like an iceberg.

So much is going right with my life and yet I'm adrift. That basically sucks.